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(...to smoke my tears away)

[29 Sep 2006|01:38pm]
Spider-Man has gone all emo.

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

The Blankest Year [01 Sep 2006|02:17pm]
"Oh, fuck it. I'm gonna have a party!" Probably my new theme song. Thank you Nada Surf.

(...to smoke my tears away)

[28 Aug 2006|07:32pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I had the worst first day of school ever. Its never been this bad. We have all these incoming freshmen, and they always show up the first day of class but never again. The parking lot was literally full. I drove around and around and around for 20 minutes before finding a spot. And someone backed into me! I was kind of shaking afterwards, only because I thought the campus police would get involved. I just kept driving though because they were going maybe 1 mile per hour and they didn't do any damage to my car, vice versa. What happened was, I saw someone in the middle of the row with their blinker on, meaning they were waiting for someone to pull out to take their spot. I could see that person but I couldn't tell who they were waiting for. So I stopped. I happened to stop right in front of the car that was backing out. Even though I was right behind them, and they hadn't even gone out halfway, they still backed up. They stopped, I honked. I thought it would be all over, but they continued to back up and ran into my front bumper. So I honked even louder! I took a look at their car and then continued to drive. I had like 15 minutes until my class started, so I didn't have time to stop and deal with the other driver. And then my professor tells us about almost getting into an accident. Then on my way home I drove past an accident. Egads! I had some errands to run, but I started freaking out so I got my mom to drive me in exchange for making dinner. Also, I ended up going the long way around to my next class, which is across across campus. I have a huge sunburn now on my shoulders. It is white where my tank top straps were. Good thing I was wearing a backpack, or I'd have a crispy fried back. I did burn my chest though, so no more low-cut tops for awhile. Oh, and my ankles started bleeding because I was not wearing walking shoes. First blisters formed, and they popped. At the end of the day, I walked back to the very end of the parking lot, drenching with sweat and limping. Not fun!

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[27 Aug 2006|04:38pm]
I got so confused last night. Some customer rented Hannibal and Red Dragon and I didn't remember that they made two more Hannibal Lecter movies. Then I got really confused when I looked up Red Dragon in our "Movie Hound" book and they mentioned something about Manhunter. I thought it was like an alternative title. I rented Manhunter because its supposed to be better than Silence of the Lambs. I saw Silence of the Lambs a long time ago, so I don't know if I could compare unless I saw it again. But Brian Cox plays Hannibal in Manhunter and he's pretty scary. Crucify me, but I think Anthony Hopkins is a bit of an overactor, and not in a good way. Enough with my rambling.

I have to fill out 4 pages of work history for my application at the library. I'm actually applying at two locations, so that's why I have so much. I really, really want the job.

I found the coolest little online store called Loungefly. For some reason I've been wanting a new purse with skull and crossbones on it, and all of Loungefly's purses have skull and crossbones on them. How weird. They also have some wicked cute hairpins, but I can't spend too much money ordering stuff. The purse for now, and then the wallet and hairpins next paycheck. Oh, and I was talking to some customer about her Joy Division shirt. She told me the name of the website she bought it on, but I found another one called tshirtfiend.com. I don't really wear band t-shirts, but God, they have a Tom Waits shirt. Gah, why do I have to be going broke now?

School starts tomorrow and I am so fuckin' nervous.

(4 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

A side of my versatility [25 Aug 2006|10:30am]
[ mood | happy ]

So full of myself. I got a new haircut! I want to take pictures of my room as well but everytime I want to use our digital camera, it is out of batteries. Read on if you would likeCollapse )

Okay, probably the first and last time I post pictures of myself :)

(...to smoke my tears away)

[22 Aug 2006|08:15pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I went a little overboard these past few days. I redecorated my room, along with rearranging it. I have some space in the middle, whereas before my bed was in the middle of my room. I got some new bedding, a wicker chair, throw pillows, throw blankets, a curtain, a new computer desk, a new tv stand/dvd holder, and a new flatscreen monitor. I especially love my sheets; they are made out of jersey knit, so they feel like sleeping with a giant t-shirt on! When I buy my new digicam, I might post some pictures. I'm really proud of my decorating job and thankful that my mom helped me buy everything. I still need some candle holders, book ends, picture frames, a rug, a bonsai tree and some wall art. And of course, I still need to organize and clean my room. I have a bunch of crap thrown in my closet. I cannot wait until I get my own apartment but now I know how expensive its going to be just to decorate it. Its a good thing that I and my future roommate have the same taste, that will make it easy.

I missed Graveyard Bowling last night. Joey invited everyone on myspace, but I compeletely blanked. I spent my whole day shopping. Its funny, on my days off I don't have time to lounge around because I'm catching up on things I can't do during the work days. School starts on Monday, and hopefully I'll have everything settled by then. I still need to do some shopping for business casual clothes and make a haircut appointment. Oh, and I can't open the front door of my car anymore. Another appointment to make!

I'm going to have get used to this tiny little print and huge monitor thing. It saves a lot of space though, which is great. And my graphics look pretty cool with it too.

Too bad I'm busy, its fuckin' crazy that VM 2, House 2, and Desperate Housewives 2 are all coming out!!! I watch more TV than movies nowadays, its gotten better.

(...to smoke my tears away)

[16 Aug 2006|05:26pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Work soon. But all I want to do is watch House. Went home early last night, might want to go home early again. Haircut next week. School in two weeks. Still need two books from amazon.com, hope they arrive on time. Lunch and shopping tomorrow with my best friend. What's new?

ooh yah, next week i will be going back to my regular "exercise" routine, so maybe i will be feeling happier and healthier.

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[14 Aug 2006|07:47pm]
I'm back from my camping trip. It was more fun than I thought it would be. The whole family got along pretty well, but my dad complained the whole time. My aunt went a little overboard, cooking us fancy meals every day. It was so funny to watch her use the cutting board on the tree stump. She made us this Egyptian dish, which was basically some type of bean soup. I'm pretty sure we are the only family to eat hummus and pita bread on a camping trip. Even though we are back home, we just got together to eat hot dogs, and tomorrow we are going to have a bunch of hamburgers. That is the stuff we brought on the trip that we never got to eat! Most of the time was spent waiting for our meals and hauling food to and from our cars. We did go on a Sequoia Tree tour and we went canoing on the Hume Lake. I had to put on sunblock every five minutes, but I did manage to get a little color in my arms. I want to be back on vacation.

I was inspired by this trip to redecorate my room. Well, I guess decorate my room. Right now I just have an odd assortment of furniture and blankets. The colors are going to be greens and browns, with some grays and oranges mixed in. I found some neat stuff at Urban Outfitters that I might want to buy: an owl pillow, a tree coat hanger, and a canvas print of a dear. It fits with my theme of urban meets nature. I actually want to make some of the decorations myself, so that might keep me busy. I need matching bedding and sheets, which I am going to get at JC Penney. I can't wait to start actually.

Other thing I need to do is get a haircut. My inspiration: VM, 1st season.

(...to smoke my tears away)

[07 Aug 2006|04:46pm]
If you can get your hands on it, you should watch this movie. Its called Evil, or Ondskan in Swedish. It was definitely my kind of movie. Hot Scandinavian boys, boarding schools, fist fights. I wish I could get my hands on the book, but it was written in the 80's and its in Swedish. Can't find it at the library or amazon. The main character is a badass, like a rebel with a cause. On the special features, the real-life author was explaining that he based the novel/film on his horrible experiences at an elitist boarding school. He became a lawyer and then spent his adult life trying to get it shut down. Here's the guy that plays him in the movie:

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Isn't he beautiful?

(...to smoke my tears away)

[06 Aug 2006|04:23pm]
I watched Brick again last night. I totally picked up huge chunks of the story line by being able to put on the captions. And I appreciated its style more when I wasn't sitting right up front in a movie theatre being blinded by how close I was. Everyone I work with rented it last night, so I'm curious to see what they thought about it.

Grrr...I still have to go the library and pick up some stuff on hold, and get a haircut, and buy some clothes. I've been really lazy lately. I will soon be going on a mini-vacation. This Wed-Sun I will be camping with my family. I mean, my whole family. My grandpa, his wife, and their three kids; My parents and my siblings; and my aunt, her husband, and their kid. Should be fun. I'll probably be coming back half starved and mad or starved and almost mad.

(...to smoke my tears away)

[05 Aug 2006|03:19pm]
I can't believe that its taken this long for me to watch Still Crazy. Its a veritable orgasm for weird girls like me. Bill Nighy, Stephen Rea, Bruce Robinson, and that guy from Les Miserables that I thought was so cute. *Cream* I remember twolittledolls telling me about it all those years ago.

Last night was a lot of fun. Tapes n' Tapes are awesome live. I was dancing like a maniac, as was my friend Harmony. The Futureheads made just about everyone dance like a maniac. When they played Hounds of Love, I went crazy and two British guys in the audience started filming me. Well, they were filming the band but then they turned to me and were like "You're on camera!" Then they kept swishing beer all over the back of my legs. They told me to just wipe it off my legs and drink it. Nice. After the show, we waited around because my friend wanted to buy a Tapes n' Tapes shirt. The drummer ended up coming to us and explaining why they didn't have any shirts to sell. I don't really know what he was saying because he was drunk, but he ended up going backstage and grabbing two shirts and he sold them to my friend and some other guy. So I guess they were the only ones that ended up with t-shirts. Oh, I also talked to Ross Futurehead briefly. It was nice to be talking to a British guy again. After the show we headed over to Beauty Bar to get our parking validated. We ended up staying for awhile and dancing to Bloc Party and buying two horribly made drinks.

So, here's the thing I'm sort of stuck on. Like the thing I keep thinking about. Ryan offered to buy me drinks twice and both times I told him I had just bought one and that I didn't like that they were too strong. See, I kept leaving my drink and my friend to go over and talk to him. I guess you aren't supposed to refuse a drink from a guy. But I'm thinking he was just offering like in friendship or something, like he offered his friend a drink so it would be rude not to offer me one. Its a bit different than a guy coming up and offering to buy you a drink but you say no. I wasn't saying no in refusal, but it may have seemed like that (even though I did explain that I just bought one or that they didn't make the drinks to my liking). God, I am not a normal girl. All my friends were like, "How come you just didn't let him buy you a drink?" I dunno! Hopefully, he does end up buying me a drink, when we go out by ourselves, to the pub, and he tries a snakebite and black. *Crossing fingers*.

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[03 Aug 2006|05:58pm]
What a boring day off. Grey skies. No phone calls from boys. No swimming. Re-runs of re-runs of Project Runway. A bit of Home Movies and Alan Partridge did cheer me up. Now my biggest decision is what movie I am going to watch tonight. And, how do I cope with him not calling me back? Tomorrow will be better: picking up paycheck, picking my friend up from the airport, getting 100 bucks for house-sitting, and then getting drunk (hopefully) at a great (expectantly) concert. I love when I have something to do on Friday night.

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[02 Aug 2006|12:03pm]
So, I got a rejection letter from the library. Well, it was more like a rejection card. It was filled out with my information and what job I was applying for and then they checked the box "You were not selected for the interviewing process". The funny thing is, they didn't check the box that said "You did not meet the minimum requirements for this position," which I thought I didn't. The job listing said six months library experience or related "public contact" experience, whatever that means. I've never worked in a library, but perhaps a video rental place, a children's nursery, and a law office counts for public contact experience.

So that sucks. Also, despite the fact that Ryan has a girlfriend he keeps telling me to call him. I think his exact words were "Hit me up" *what a nerdy nerd nerd*.

I've been watching Home Movies a lot lately. I love the kids' fake movie posters. I need to get a screencap of the poster "My Clock is Orange" and make it into an icon. That would be sweet.

(4 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[27 Jul 2006|08:26pm]
Forget myspace. LJ is the shit. Ever since I "rediscovered" this place, I haven't even looked at myspace. *Squee* I love making icons. I was up until 4 am yesterday doing it. Hey, what do the ads look like if you upgrade to the plus mode? I just don't want to upgrade if they are too distracting. I'm gonna watch a movie, same thing I do every night :). Anyone (who has my number) call me if you want to hang out this weekend. I've got nothing to do.

(4 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[26 Jul 2006|10:25pm]
Harry & The Potters, so awesome! One of the best free shows. One of the best shows taking place in a library. One of the best shows ever. I was designated picture taker, and I took some pretty good ones. They moved around alot, very frenetic. Highlights:

-HP (Year 7) harrasing my friend because her shirt said "Voldemort will Stop the Rock"
-HP's (Year 4) crazy enthusiasm, "I bottled up my anger, and then I poured that bottle over my guitar, and out came rock!"
-HP (Year 7) rocking out on his knees in front of us
-HP (Year 7) singing "I'd rather not talk about your dead ex-boyfriends over coffee" in his megaphone
-Cornelius Fudge is a Butthole, the library version of CF is an ass
-Being in the 1st row and the only ones standing
-The band guys complementing our homemade shirts
-Draco & The Malfoys singing "99 Deatheaters go by"
-Draco & The Malfoys saying that Vegas is the most evil city in America because we cheered for Voldemort
-Yelling SPEW! into the microphone (I didn't get to, but hearing people yell it was funny)
-Getting the new CD signed for my aunt Ruth, who couldn't make it (she's 11)

I made like 15 Joseph Gordon-Levitt icons today. Is it just me, or is he like the hottest thing ever? Not to mention he is always beat up in his movies. Cut lips and black eyes. Sigh.

Oh, and I'm picking up my mom from the airport in half an hour. Sweet relief.

(2 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[25 Jul 2006|10:41pm]
Tonight was fun. It was basically like being in England again (without all the cute guys). It was my friend's 21st. I know, its only like 11 and I'm home. We're hardcore like that. We went to the Crown & Anchor, got some yummy food and our Strongbow cider. Then we went gambling, lost $3 (high roller). Then we went to Fado's Irish Pub and found out that they serve Strongbow as well. Also they can make the bestest drink ever, snakebite and black! Booyah, we are going there like every night. They were also playing really good music. Went back to my friends house, had some cake and opened pressies. I got her Tristram Shandy and $10 gift certificate to the British Food Market. Then I drove home, and what were they playing on the radio? Blur. Fucking England man.

(7 cigarettes | ...to smoke my tears away)

[23 Jul 2006|03:58pm]
I want to move out of my parents' house. I'm thinking I could do with another job though. I really want to work at the library, because I'd be able to afford rent if I did. If I get the entry level job, which is shelving that's $7/hr, combined with my current $6.75/hr. If I move up in that position I could make up to $9/hr and then I could quit my current job. If I get a higher position, one of Circulation Assistant, that is $12/hr. I could definitely live on that (with roommates), but you need six months library experience. I'm going to turn in an application and resume anyways, and be really persistant about getting it. Afterall, I did start working in a law office while I was in high school with no previous experience. I ended up being a secretary, file clerk, runner and paralegal all in one. I think I could learn the inner workings of a library pretty quickly as well. The thing is though, I gotta stop thinking about things and just do them. I don't know what is holding me back. Probably uncertainty.

(1 cigarette | ...to smoke my tears away)

[22 Jul 2006|07:26pm]
Its not just because I work at Hollywood Video but I hate Blockbuster. I'm also annoyed at my dad. My mom is on the movie pass and she is out of town. So I returned her movie pass movies and I asked my dad and my brother what they wanted to exchange them for. They couldn't think of anything so I just returned the two movies. I go today to get some movies for my dad. He wants Red Planet and Somewhere in Time. Of course Blockbuster doesn't have either, so I go home frustrated. I get off of work and I'm exhausted and my dad wants me to go back to Blockbuster to get something. Keep in mind that he's been sitting at home all day, he has the blockbuster card on his keys and I've been running errands like going to the bank, grocery shopping and picking up my little brother. On top of this I had to clean the kitchen and go to work, only to be sent home because they scheduled too many people. So I go back to Blockbuster and my dad says he wants science-fiction movies. Of course Blockbuster has no science-fiction section, so I'm roaming the whole store looking for movies that look sci-fi on the cover. The guy at the store is no help either. And of course my dad refuses to go with me, so I have no idea what he's seen or what he will like. Finally I picked out two movies and go to the front counter. I told them I'm on the movie pass and they are like where are your movies? Apparently you have to bring the two movies up to them to exchange them for two new ones. I don't really understand why its just not in their computer system that I checked them out and indeed did return them. Obviously, I don't have my mother's ID with me and my dad has the Blockbuster card. By this point I am starving because I haven't eaten since breakfast and I have to go home empty handed once again. When I got home I told my dad that I hate Blockbuster and that I'm not going to go back. He says I don't have to if I don't want to, but of course he rails on me for not doing so. He says "Oh, I forgot you can't do simple tasks like this." I was like "I went to the bank today, and the store and I picked up Michael from his friend's house. I guess if I can't do simple tasks I'll just stop doing what I've been doing all week for you." So I guess I will. No more laundry, cleaning, cooking, running to the store, driving my brother around, running to Blockbuster for my dad, running to the bank to deposit my dad's paychecks, checking the mail, taking out the trash, feeding the dogs, feeding the cats, putting the dogs outside, putting the cats to bed, mopping, sweeping, wiping down counters. Because I can't do simple tasks.

(...to smoke my tears away)

[21 Jul 2006|11:02pm]
Some weird shit is happening. When I got home at 6 tonight, there were two police cars in my neighborhood and some K9s sniffing around the street. I called my dad and told him and he said to stay in the house. When he got home, he talked to some of the neighbors. Apparently some kid robbed the Jack in the Box down the street at gunpoint, walked home, and then holed himself in his house with the gun. I don't know which house he is in, but it must be right around the corner from my house because my street is jammed up with ambulances, cop cars, paramedics, SWAT, police, and god knows what else. The weird thing is, its not been on the news at all. I'm not sure about the whole story either, because the neighbors could've gotten some facts mixed up. I heard one of the police officers yelling into a megaphone and I think he was saying "Come out of the house." Its been five hours like this, and no news. I would think that it would be a pretty big deal, but there are no news vehicles or helicopters around here. I don't want to leave the house either, even though I had some errands to run. I don't want to be the one driving by while this kid is running out of his house flailing a gun or something. I must say, this is such a weird situation that I don't know how to react. I guess I'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out what's really been going on all night, because I'm too scared to find out myself right now. Another thing, my dad kept going outside and leaving the door wide open. I kept thinking that the last thing we need is for the dogs to run out into this mess and have to chase after them. They are safely shut in my room with me right now. The other neighbors are treating it like a mild curiosity and calling everyone they know on their cellphones. Everyone's just hanging about on their lawn chairs. Well I guess I'll be writing about the outcome tomorrow, when I find out in the papers.

(1 cigarette | ...to smoke my tears away)

[17 Jul 2006|01:13pm]
I'm worried about my little brother lately. I got up this morning at 9:30 and he's on the computer. He doesn't usually wake up until noon or so. But I find out that he hadn't even gone to bed. So he was up all day yesterday and well into this afternoon. Then I find out that he hadn't eaten anything all that time. I feel bad because I don't even remember when it was he ate yesterday. I made dinner, but my brother is so picky that he never eats what I make. I think he had some bagel bites at about 3:00 pm, so that's like 20 hours without eating anything. Hopefully he did eat something and he just didn't remember. I wish I didn't react by yelling, but I can't help it. I had to tell him to shut up because he kept talking over me when I was trying to explain that he shouldn't be pulling all nighters and starving himself. I think he knows I was just concerned though, because he agreed to start going to bed at a certain time. I think I yelled something like "You could be dying internally and you wouldn't know and I don't want to have to drive you to the emergency room!" Maybe I was overreacting a bit but he's my little brother, ya know? God, I'm going to be the most worrisome mother in the world. And I'm going to have to control myself when yelling, or I'm gonna end up cussing my children out daily.

So--I decided that I need more t-shirts. All I have is going out clothes, which I hardly do nowadays. I really want to go to American Apparel. They have t-shirts in over 20 colors. That kind of thing excites me. Oh, Colors, colors, colors! I hardly wear black anymore. I like it on other people, but I just don't think it suits me. I'm about due to go shopping though, I want some albums and I need undergarments.

I'm listening to the Replacements. I can't believe I've had this album for awhile and haven't listened to it yet. 'Bastards of Young' will have to go on my list of best songs about being 20-something, its right up there with 'The Way We Get By'.

Just one more thing: I really really really want Ryan Adams to come to Las Vegas. I've been a fan of his for like 6 years and it would just be awesome. I was just reading some posts on the ryan adams community and it hit me how much I am missing out!!!

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